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My new hair! I cut it! Well, had it cut. And I absolutely love it! My self-confidence went up about 100 percent with this new haircut! It feels like I actually have hair! WOAH! :D

Yesterday was one of those days that I will probably never forget. First we went to the beach with mom, sis and her two kids (11 & 13 years old), we had a great time, I took 300 photos. I came home, went to get the new haircut, went to see mom, she took the photos above, went to see dad, he had sparkling wine, we drank two bottles (3 people), I came home, I was really restless.I messaged this guy and we went for a night walk and walked around a lake (Joutjärvi). :D Then sat on the beach, drank beer and talked until it was way too cold, I biked back home after midnight.

Today I started the day by going to the marketplace, soon it's time for a walk, it's so beautiful outside. I feel so happy and energetic! :D

Some photos I took two days ago. I am going to try to learn to really
master my camera during this summer holiday. ^_^

Helsinki Gay Pride 2013

It's that time of the year again. =)
Me and my friends once again travelled to Helsinki to take part in the Gay parade. ♥ And it was another wonderful day! It promised rain for the whole day, it it did not rain once! And nothing bad happened either (last year people got egged (me too) and a few years back there was a gas attack). It was all safe, fun and wonderful.

Here are a few pictures. I took about 300 pics, but don't want to show them all, because my friends are in them and I don't know if they want to show them online. But here's a glimpse:

We were at the starting point, waiting to move, when NYAN NYAN
walked past us. XD

And then we were moving. There were 9000 people taking part and double
that watching the parade. ^__^
... would have been more, if it wouldn't have been promising rain, gah!

Our "group", the flag says "Of course from Lahti" or something
like that. It's a bit difficult to translate fluently. Maybe more like
"Made in Lahti and proud of it"... hmm, I dunno. XD
But anyways, the point: we're from a town called Lahti. =P

Bubble, toes and rainbows. At the Pride park. ^^ 

People are gathering. More came all the time.

Meee in my Pride dress. :D
They gave away those stickers for free (that I have on my boobs),
those two say: "Perv" & "Puma"... like cougar, but we call them... us
(haha) puma. X3

KYAAH! The minister of sports and culture! ♥

My friend Shuji and her balloon. XD ♥

Me, happyhappy meee. ^_^

During this fun and laughter and loveliness and awesomeness, there was
a sadder message: Russian human rights are... well, shit. People tried to
have a Pride parade in Russia and were put to jail. It is now illegal to even talk
about gays in russia. This sucks, it has to change!

But what a day it was. Wonderful wonderful wonderful. Once again! It was my sixth Pride
and definitely not last. Next year again! ♥
Now I'm just gonna sleep and do nothing for a long time. So tired. ^^;

Spring

Spring is finally here! The ice has melted from the lake and the snow has melted from the streets and the sun is warm again. I have waited for this the whole winter. I hate the cold and dark season and now the light is on the winning side again. It makes me SO happy!

It's been a few months since I last wrote here. Not much has been happening. I had a flu, an influenza, kidney stones, urinary track infection, sinus infection and stuff like that during the beginning of the year, so I've just been trying to take it easy and to get better. I still have an inflamed cartilage of the sternum (rintalastan rustotulehdus in finnish)... I didn't even know it could get inflamed, but it is. Sigh. But it's not all bad. My supervisor training at work is almost done.

And as said, summer is coming! I LOVE IT! Because of the kidney stones coming back I had to change my whole diet... again. No chocolate, tea or nuts ever again for me. But surprise, I am not that horrified because as a result, there's this:

Two in the left: summer 2012.
Two on the right: April 2013.

Hihihi *^_______^*

I opened a "kidney stone blog, to write about my experiences, recipes that I can actually eat, and other stuff. If you wanna take a look (it's still almost empty) it's here.

Anniversary of freeeedoooommmm X3

Yesterday was a very important anniversary. I celebrated by making a huge bowl of fruitsalad (from fresh yummmy fruits) and enjoying the night just by relaxing. ^_^
It's been 5 years since the big break-up. 5 very eventful years. Not always so fun, nor easy, but unforgettable years. The first anniversary I celebrated with the boys, drinkin and clubbing, it was a hilarious night, after that I haven't really celebrated, but this year is special:
They say, that if you've been with someone, say 2 years, you'll need one year to get over it after the break-up.

We were together for 10 years, so my "time is done", 5 years. I am now a completely free from all shackles. Well, I had that another relationship, that lasted 2 years, but it never went anywhere, and maybe that was because it was still in the time limit of my five years. (I've been counting how many days we actually spent together with my last ex, and it's somewhere around 60 days, so I've suffered that one too. X3)
With the "10-year-ex" we spent almost all of our time together. And I mean ALL. We were apart for 5 days, during 10 years!

But now, freedom and future awaits. I am having a good time right now in life. Work is going well, I keep losing weight, art classes are fun, therapy is going really well, I've been painting a bit, and just feel relaxed most of the time, there are a lot of fun things to look forward in the future.
I have energy to do stuff and feel like doing them. The diet isn't horrible, it's difficult but bearable. And we have a few new guys at work... very good looking ones, so that part of life seems to be going well too, eyecandy, yum yum. ;P
... actually, a fun present for my anniversary: A guy who I keep seeing a lot in weird places, suddenly came to work yesterday and told that he's gonna be working there for the next 3 months. HURRAA! XD
Eyeeeecandyyyy.

And it's finally winter, it's been snowing!
And it's not even a month until mine and Ktiraam's christmas cruise to Stockholm, YAYYYYYY! =D =D =D

The fire lady. An acrylic painting I did for
myself because I needed a "power
picture". =D
50 x 70 cm (19.7 x 27.6 inches)

Summer happiness

My summer vacation (3 weeks) started yesterday. I walked around at the beach after work and then sat at the grass and read a book for almost an hour, trotting back home at 8 pm. Today we spent the whole day at a beach at Vääksy with mom, sis and her two kids (10 & 12 year olds). We had a really fun day, a picnic, swimming, sun and photos. ^_^

Summer makes me happy. Especially when the weather is as nice as it is now. Bright, sunny and warm, I absolutely love it. It makes me feel like I shouldn't sleep at all so I wouldn't miss a moment of it, the summer is so brief here.

I've been feeling quite good lately. There are still moments when I miss... him like crazy, like last night when I remembered how he used to hug me before we went to sleep. But it's no more and that's it. I am going to try enjoy my single days as much as I can, concentrate on myself and my happiness and not someone else's. I was ready to give up so much for him that it's frightening. That way it was good that it never worked out. Now I can be completely myself again, I don't have to please anyone.
Oh gods I still miss him sometimes, so badly.
But now, looking back on things with this whole new point of views, from the "outside" of things, I am realizing that it would have never worked out. He wasn't the guy for me. For some reason, more than sad, this break-up makes me feel damn old! I don't know, maybe somewhere deep down inside I just wanted to settle down, have a family, the whole thing. And now, once again, I'm in point zero.

Oh well, you never (ever) know where life takes you! This year has been full of surprises. ^_^

The Helsinki Gay Pride parade was a week ago. ♥ It's always the high point of my summer and this day was no exception. It was my fifth Pride! =D I'll post photos from there soon. It was an absolutely incredibly wonderful day, so great that it still makes me smile when I think about it. And there were so many of my friends: Ktiraam, Anu, Elli, Elli2 (=P ♥), Essi and her new husband Niko, Anni who celebrated her birthday, Nora, shiroi & Tino... and lots more! ^___^

And work has been really good! I've gotten some really cool assignments, working on a website, adverts and photographing... just my things. It makes me happy. I've gotten to know more people at the workplace and made some friends, it seems I'm not as quiet and shy as I've always thought I was, when I'm in a place where I can really be myself.

In a weeks time me and Ktiraam are gonna go to Helsinki, to the Korkeasaari zoo, visit her sister and all the little comic/book/manga/fun stores that are waiting in Helsinki! And then there's Finncon 2012 in Tampere, KYAAH, I so wanna go there after seeing their timetable, sooo many cool things to look forward to.

I actually had a point when I started to write this, but now I've lost it. My mind is a little too full these day. It always feels like I should be doing something. I'm been ignoring so many things and people, I want to do so many things, but I don't really have the energy to do it all. I haven't drawn almost anything, two pictures during the whole summer!
But I've been reading, I've re-read all the Sookie Stackhouse novels and am now reading the new one that was published only about a month ago. I cannot wait for the last one! ... and I am starting to dislike the show so much, it has nothing left of the original story, absolutely nothing, it's just a mess! ... mess with hot vampires, but still a mess. XD

Anyways, before this text turns even longer, I better go to sleep, it's already 10.30 pm here, my sleepytime. =3 I'll post photos and a few drawings, when I get my mind to work enough to consentrate on anything more than a few minutes. ^^;
Oh yeah, I made this for work. ^_^ (it's my professional portfolio so it's made with my real name and stuff...)

♥