Hooooooooooooooooo, life!

It's been quite  a while again since I wrote here... but not really. A few weeks, maybe 3, maybe 4. But life has gone upsydaisy during this time. XD

I got a promotion at work. I am now working 4 days a week as an computer teacher at our workplace. It's a HUGE deal for me, I am very happy!
And, it seems that one big change is never enough: I'm moving. Not voluntarily, but my landlady needs the apartment herself so I am being kicked out. I have until summer to find a new place for myself. I started searching today.
... I am kind of happy and not so happy: Moving is stressful and a hassle, my rest is gonna go up, that's for sure. But I will probably get a bigger place and hopefully a newer, nicer one too. It won't be in the middle of the town, but hopefully close to it. It's kind of exciting to wait what it will be, but at the same time freaking frightening, because I just want to get the new place and not wait a day longer!

So, time goes by as I pack my things up and try to get rid of some things that I don't need. And trying to keep my head together with all the things going on. I only have 4-5 times of therapy left, after that I'll be pretty much on my own with everything. I am stronger than before, I know it, but still... life can be really surprising!
Oh yeah and I have a brand new freaking cool computer, which I LOVE! ^___^

At least my lovelife is still like a dead fish! X3
... Here's some new stuff I've painted:

S & X, ink & coloured pencils. A3, 4 days. <3

Photoshop painting, 4 hours.

A gift for Volvom at Deviantart. <3 ^_^

Fanart for Misfits, the wonderful British tv-series.
Alisha & Simon. <3

Season of change

It was decision time, because I've been feeling like shit for the last few weeks. I've been taught to search for the reasons that make me feel bad and to solve them.

I did so with my viking (and told him about the things that were bothering me) and I think we're okay now. Better than okay. ♥ I visited him last weekend and saw his place, slept on the floor, cuddled him on his two old tv-chairs, showered in his shower, ate his food; all things I've never done before. ^___^ ♥

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Guess what inspired me to do this? ;D

And today I quit my course.

It's still unfinished, I have to talk to the leader of the course. And I have to arrange another meeting with my psychiatrist, because I really need it! But I told my "supervisors" at Lyhty (unemployment office branch for the depressed and long-unemployed and so on) that I was not going to go to the course anymore, and got an appointment there in two weeks time. They were so supportive I instantly feel better!

I've been crying all day (again!) but relief is slowly taking over. I didn't know how much stress and horrible feelings the course was making me feel. It ate all my energy. I just started to realize it last week, when I couldn't stop crying. The leader said then that I need intense therapy. But the course was not it, it was too much. I cannot handle acting with the other people there and... it was just making me feel worse.

But now it's over. Onward to new adventures I go. Tomorrow I'm gonna go look around, I want to order a new dancing-mat, the old one doesn't work with this new computer of mine. ^_^ And I am going to the gym, either today or tomorrow. I am definitely going to take a long walk with mom this afternoon, need to vent, harr! ^___^/

New ways

It's the second day of my new diet and exercise plan. It doesn't seem so difficult, but then again, I just started. I'm sure there are some difficult days ahead. I quit eating anything unhealthy (candy, ice-cream, chocolate, chips, fast food, cookies...). I check the calories, fat and sugar from everything I eat and I have "feeding times" when I have to eat.

And I've been exercising a lot too. I walk 1,5 hours every day, plus little walks around the city. At night I lift weights and stretch. This morning I woke up with so much energy I felt like I could run! Teehee ^___^ I visited the social-office and came home and started to organize my furniture. Now I have a whole new order here, where I don't have to sit on my bed all day. I have a table to sit in front of when I'm on the laptop or when I draw.

After I had organized the furniture, I went for a walk with my mom. We went to the beach and harbor and then to the grocery store. It was a bit of a torture to watch her buy ice-cream and talk about drinking wine tonight when all I get is apples and carrots, but: I'm gonna be fit after this and that's all that matters!

And with this new diet, I don't have to starve. The whole point is, that I don't feel hungry so I don't start munching anything unhealthy outside my meal-time-plan. =D I haven't set a weight where I want to get to, the point of this is to get healthier, drop my blood pressure and have more energy and so far it's working. ^_^ Of course I won't complain if I loose a few pounds doing this, because I know I've gained loads of unnecessary weight during this year. ^_^

Now back to organizing. Since I already started, I decided to re-organize my bookshelves... I have 3 of them, so full of books I have to give some up to make some room for new ones. XD
Today I feel excellent. ^___^

Oh and here's something new:

My firespirit Yvain. ^___^