Twitchy feet

Also called restless legs syndrome. I have it. I've had it since the growth sprint when I was only 12-13. I grew 20 centimeters (7.9 inches) in one year.

After that I've been suffering from the restless legs on and off. Since they changed my meds last fall, it's gradually gotten worse and worse... and this weekend, I stayed up all night (sun-mon) because my legs just would not stop moving and cramping and twitching. Those who have ever had this problem know how horrible it can get.
And I think anyone can image the feeling when you've tried to sleep for 8 hours, laying on your bed, staring that the ceiling because they sleep just won't come. As soon as you close your eyes and start to fall asleep, the legs give a twitch and you wake up with a start. You become such a nervous wreck at the end of the night that you don't even try to fall asleep anymore, you just wait for morning to come so you don't have so suffer anymore.

So... I called and booked myself a doctors appointment and went there yesterday. He was foreign, so we had some trouble getting the issue understood (most doctors here in Finland are foreign these days because it's cheaper to hire foreign doctors than Finnish ones.). In the end, after a lot of discussing that I found rather pointless (telling everything that was NOT helping me to sleep, like stretching, walking and massaging my legs), he understood my problem and:
they are gonna change my medication, AGAIN!

This medication (Moclobemid) should be a lot less horrible to change than the last one (Efexor). But still, I am worried, because with a new medication comes new side-effects, and the ones I've had so far had not been all fun and games. Plus this medication I have now has been utterly perfect if you don't count the restless legs... but it's gotten so bad that I get about 4-5 hours asleep during a "normal" night, so it cannot go on like this. =(

So now I wait while the doctor negotiates with my other doctor and they together decide what meds to try next, wooooot. In a week I should know and be able to start the switch, again.

On other news, I love my "workplace"! =D

March

Samsung Galaxy Mini

First.
Day... of March. I mean. =P

I have a new phone. This one. I love it, love it, love it, love it! With it came a 2Gb memory card so I can put photos and drawings on it and listen to music too. And it has a touch screen, which is really cool but also kind of freaks me out sometimes. XDD

The clock radio. Simple and
cheap, but working.

Today we (me and Ktiraam) went to buy stuff to a shopping center a little farther from the center of the city. We'd planned this trip since the beginning of the year. We walked there for half an hour, shopped for an hour... I bought an "armour" to the new phone (a see trough plastic cover) and a new clock-radio because I had no clock... nor a radio. XD Maarit bought a memory card for her new phone and a new cool trashcan to her bathroom.

This is the hoodie.

We took a bus back to the city, went to eat some chinese (Huadu, nommm) and continued shopping for two more hours. I bought a pink hoodie!

Haha. And then we went to eat some ice-cream in our favourite ice-cream place, Ciao. ♥ That's enough shopping for a few months, but they were all stuff I've been meaning to buy for months but just haven't had the money. ^_^

This has been a little rough a week. I couldn't sleep well during the weekend, I had a sort of panic attack or something the first night and the second my dear Viking kept my awake by snoring all night (argh!!) and it left me sooo tired that it took two days to get over the tiredness. Yesterday we went on a 1 hour 45 minutes walk with my mom, so I think I've recovered now.

I still need to clean the house today. My Viking is coming here tomorrow again. And I have a friends birthday party on Saturday. And then I need to rest and relax because on Monday work start.
And on Tuesday I am getting my fourth TATTOO on my left arm! ;D

Something new from the art front. A burlesque
cybergoth inspired faery/demon woman.
... I just really wanted to paint hair! XD

Summer 3

The summer heat returned. it's been a wonderfully sunny, beautiful, warm day here. And I'm a little irritated with myself; I only got myself out for about an hour to take a walk and visit some second-hand-stores. After and before that I've just been watching "The Beauty and the Geek" television series, season 3 & 4.

I am so sleepy and tired all the time, I slept for over 2 hour nap again and still, at night I sleep 8-10 hours every night. My arms have been really sore today too, I don't know if it's from all the drawing I did last week (it's been so long since I drew this much) or knitting a little yesterday, but I can't even draw... or basically do anything with my hands, so that frustrates me even more, and I just feel like sleeping all the time.

Everyone says it's just the depression and anxiety-disorder, but it just makes me more depressed when I have no energy and feel sleepy ALL the time. And I've gained weight too, because I'm just too tired to move like I used to.

...So, I am promising myself to take at least a 1,5 hour walk or a bike ride every day during this week! On Saturday we're going to Helsinki to Gay Pride, so I need to be in a good and awake state there! I know I will be, I love that happening so much. ♥

I was at my dads yesterday and got to play with the little Emilia girl, my stepsisters daughter. She is so cuuute~, I adore her, she just smiles and moves around. She's never on a bad mood. ^_^
Unfortunately my Viking told me he's not gonna come home for at least another week, sniff. =( But I'm just gonna hang out with my friends and enjoy summer the best I can. Today I dug up all my Pride things I have. And I need to decorate my balcony with the Pride flags too. =D

Babies.

Just 3 years ago I was afraid of babies. They were just scary, I was afraid to touch them and when I did get to hold one, they always burst out crying. But during this last year or so, I've gotten rid of that fear. My sisters beautiful daughter helped a lot with that. Last sunday I spent hours playing with her, carried her around and got the dress her socks, and she smiled at me a lot, hihii, those little things made me so happy.

And today I saw two of my childhood friends who both have about year-old babies, a boy and a girl. We played with them and I took over 100 photos of them. Teehehee, it was really fun. 17 of my friends have gotten kids during this year. And I am so happy for them. During this time I have also realized that I want kids. One day. I hope I'm not too old when I want to make it happen. ♥

This week has been nice, not anything special, but nice and relaxing. I've seen friends and visited our anime/mangaclub Bakanat, it's been months since I visited there. I realized it's almost summer. I want Gay Pride to come soon. =D

I am still so very tired all the time. I sleep about 9-10 hours every night and an hour nap in the afternoon, and sometimes another nap at night. Then I can't get to bed before 2 am. It's not good, but I cannot help it, if I don't rest, I don't have any energy. It's really frustrating. =/ But I have been drawing a little again. Several sketches. ^_^

My Viking's roleplay character. He's still not completely happy with it, but I really like this painting. ;P