“Laugh, even when you feel too sick or too worn out or tired.
Smile, even when you're trying not to cry and the tears are blurring your vision.
Sing, even when people stare at you and tell you your voice is crappy.
Trust, even when your heart begs you not to.
Twirl, even when your mind makes no sense of what you see.
Frolick, even when you are made fun of. Kiss, even when others are watching. Sleep, even when you're afraid of what the dreams might bring.
Run, even when it feels like you can't run any more.
And, always, remember, even when the memories pinch your heart. Because the pain of all your experience is what makes you the person you are now. And without your experience---you are an empty page, a blank notebook, a missing lyric. What makes you brave is your willingness to live through your terrible life and hold your head up high the next day. So don't live life in fear. Because you are stronger now, after all the crap has happened, than you ever were back before it started.”
~Alysha Speer
Sometimes you get a wake-up call to realize how life is just... not days that go by. It's precious time, days to dream and to do everything, to live!
One of these wake-up calls came to me three days ago. My godmother, who's 84 years old, had a stroke. She was alone at home, lost her conscience and thank goodness was found soon after. She is now half paralyzed and fighting for her life. She cannot communicate in any other way than moving her eyes. She's like a grandmom to me... my grandparents died years ago and we've always been close with her. I used to visit her a lot when she had a farm, fixing things for her and just spending time there.
Life is so precious! It shouldn't be wasted on worrying and merely existing. And I can be blamed to do that too. I live too much in the future, planning what I am going to do when... whatever. Now, I want to change. Well, the change started last summer, I am on my way there and it feels so slow now that I am doing it, but I am willing to try to live my life in a way that I have nothing to regret later on.
I don't want to one day realize that I am too old to do things that I always wanted to do. I never want to say "I wish I had did that then". I want to do it now!
With this in mind, life is wonderful!
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