To the gym I go

Issue 1: 
So, Pekka Haavisto did not win the Finnish presidential election. The likely thing happened: Finland is not ready to have a gay president. It's been said all around the media this past week (after the election was over) that his sexual preferences. =(
But oh well, the new president, Sauli Niinistö isn't that bad a choice. He wasn't my first choice, but I don't hate him either. Here's a funny picture of him, the first day as a president of our country. And no, it's not staged, people do their own housework here. =P

Issue 2: 
I was sick all last week, so my birthday celebration was a bit scant. I had a nice night with Ktiraam and penpen, watching the election on Sunday, but the girls has work the next day and I was still a little flu'ish so there was no big party. I still want to celebrate my birthday more than just eating a bad of chocolate candies, but that has to wait a while. ^^;

Issue 3:
I had a meeting at my gym this Tuesday to make a new gym schedule and program for me. And it's gonna be a tough one! But I kind of asked for it, I want to get fitter and lose weight so I'm gonna exercise 5 days/week! It has started well, yesterday I spent a whole our at the gym, exercise bicycle and today I walked for an hour and 20 minutes. Tomorrow is a gym-day again.
I am so excited about this new exercise program of mine, but I really hope I can still do it if I get a job this spring. We'll see. Have to live one day at a time. ^_^
Issue 4:
Sign the petition and if there's a demonstration near you, you can also take part there. Let's show that people  will not just stand still when their freedom of speech is tampered with.

The Anti-Counterfeiting Trade Agreement, which has already been signed by several countries, poses a dangerous threat to the inherent freedom and openess of the Internet. Under ACTA, ISPs and websites will be given more power to track what we do online, while forcing them to turn over our information and reporting our activity to the authorities -- all in the name of copyright protection! While we respect the rights of creators, ACTA's ill-conceived provisions will have chilling effects on free speech everywhere.

Below zero

Outside. It is. Freezing. But it's also been sunny. The few hours you can see the sun here in the North. =P

This has been a good day! I've been cleaning the house, cooking, grocery shopping, taking short walks, knitting, reading, doing dishes, cleaning the freezer, taking out garbage, watching documentaries, making phone calls... and not eating anything super sugary. I'm trying to get my diet in order again. It's so hard, but on these good days, it's much easier.
Yesterday was a gym day. Tomorrow is a gym day. One day is reserved for my viking ♥, one for doing nothing, one for taking care of official stuffs. Well, that's a full week. =D

It took me all day yesterday to get over this weekend. I had so much fun on Saturday with Ktiraam, we watched Torchwood, Season 1, tons of episodes, but I don't know which ones, Ktiraam keeps track of them, I just watch. XD

Torchwood. Jack, Gwen & Ianto. ^___^

And on Sunday we celebrated fathers day at my dads. All the "kids" were there: me, my sister (and her kids) and my brother. I loved seeing my sister and brother. ♥ But it was tough too. I can't tell about everything everyone's going through, because there are a lot of secrets, but let's just say that life is being pretty shitty for almost everyone right now. Rough things and tough times ahead. Urgh. It got me pretty down. And as much as I've been trying to tell myself that I cannot change these things and should not worry about them so much... how can you not worry when people you love are going through... stuff. =(

But I don't want to make this another negative post, so something positive to end this. I don't know if I've talked about it here, but I'm an atheist. Not like most Finns, who are not just going to church and not reading the bible. I don't believe in god. Any of them. They are nice stories that give people hope and strength. But to me god is like Santa Claus.
Even when I'm not religious, I'm very interested of other people's points of views, world views and things that are happening around the world. So I read a lot about religions. I want to know about them, I don't shun them, I am just completely sure that there is no god. ^_^

The reason why I brought this up, was to advertise a wonderful man. I am so hooked on his voice, HAHA! XD Richard Dawkins is one of the leading atheism spokespersons, a handsome British gentleman with a voice of a... god. (I made a funny, nyihihhiiii X3) If you are an atheist, or openminded to that sort of thing, undecided or stuff, listen to his lectures, he is woooonderful. And he's not agressive. He's always polite and doesn't raise his voice, he has clear opinions and he can always explain them. He doesn't talk "shit", he knows what he's talking about and has proof. He can turn minds.

... maybe that's enough praise for one night. Now I'm going back to listen to his lectures, easily found on Youtube. Hurraa!

Family is the best

I spent Saturday with my sisters family and my mom. We went to the woods where the kids got the run around and then went to my sisters. I got to go to a sauna all alone with a cider, aaahhhhhh bliss! ♥

We made these incredibly delicious breads with brie-cheese, salad, tomato, mayo, chicken breasts and onion, ooh, they were sooo good! And drank red wine, yummm. During the night we watched Thor, My life in Ruins & Water for elephants. And as much as I did not want to see the last movie, I have to admit that it was rather good. =S

I also drew with Jenni ja talked about movies with Niko. We discussed our favourite movies (Lord of the Rings, Harry Potter, Star Wars, Transformers, Pirates of the Caribbean...). They are so much fun, those kids. And they have such a good movie taste, haha. It was so much fun to talk about The Lord of the Rings, we got really excited and my sis and mom were sooo out of it! XDDD

Today I'm meeting my councilor at Lyhty employment office, it's kind of an unofficial meeting where we just talk about stuff. She wanted to see that I'm okay after quitting the course. And I am, now that I quit the course. I was getting really depressed again but now that I don't have to dwell on all the bad things and the past, I feel much better. ^___^

And then it's time to hit the gym. I bought a year-around-membership to the local women's-only-gym! :D

Picture of the day. Random, you say? Oh yes. XP
Pharaoh meets Woldy... with a tomato.

Zen

I've been taking long long walks, going to the gym, exercising at home. I bought and exercise ball. Today I did the dishes. Last night I couldn't sleep so I stayed up until 4.30 am writing a journal about this fall.

I feel at peace with myself. I am still depressed at times. And I cry too much, but oh well, no sense worrying about that because it wouldn't help anything. I saw my Viking two days ago, we had a great night, didn't even watch any movies or tv, just sat around, fiddled with the computer and talked about everything.

Tomorrow I'm going to buy a seasonal membership to the gym. I cannot wait! And yeah, I've been drawing every night. ^__^

Click to enlarge. 10 of my favourite actors/
actresses. Drawn by me. =D

Season of change

It was decision time, because I've been feeling like shit for the last few weeks. I've been taught to search for the reasons that make me feel bad and to solve them.

I did so with my viking (and told him about the things that were bothering me) and I think we're okay now. Better than okay. ♥ I visited him last weekend and saw his place, slept on the floor, cuddled him on his two old tv-chairs, showered in his shower, ate his food; all things I've never done before. ^___^ ♥

♥
Guess what inspired me to do this? ;D

And today I quit my course.

It's still unfinished, I have to talk to the leader of the course. And I have to arrange another meeting with my psychiatrist, because I really need it! But I told my "supervisors" at Lyhty (unemployment office branch for the depressed and long-unemployed and so on) that I was not going to go to the course anymore, and got an appointment there in two weeks time. They were so supportive I instantly feel better!

I've been crying all day (again!) but relief is slowly taking over. I didn't know how much stress and horrible feelings the course was making me feel. It ate all my energy. I just started to realize it last week, when I couldn't stop crying. The leader said then that I need intense therapy. But the course was not it, it was too much. I cannot handle acting with the other people there and... it was just making me feel worse.

But now it's over. Onward to new adventures I go. Tomorrow I'm gonna go look around, I want to order a new dancing-mat, the old one doesn't work with this new computer of mine. ^_^ And I am going to the gym, either today or tomorrow. I am definitely going to take a long walk with mom this afternoon, need to vent, harr! ^___^/