Yippiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!

This morning I woke up at 9 pm to a text message from mom: my name was in the newspaper at the "graduated" section. Now it's official, 7 years of college is finally over. Thank goodness!

This was a good morning in other ways too. I woke up next to my viking and woke him up by kissing and cuddling him. He always tries to stop me and shove me away playfully and I attack him and kiss him more and try to get my head somewhere close to his face or neck. It's a perfect way to wake up. ^_^

Mom bought me a new dress and some jewellery, pantihose and stuff for my graduation party with my family next week. I wanted a small party but our "little" family has grown so much in a few years that now there are 25 people coming to celebrate. Hahaha. Still, cannot wait to see all of them though I don't really want to be the center of attention, hiiih. ^___^

Almost summer

Two days and I get my graduation papers out from school and never have to return there.
Two days from then I am going on a cruise with my mom, Helsinki-Stockholm, I cannot wait. We have reserved the buffet dinners both ways and breakfast too. And I get to go to the huge bookstore Science-fiction bokhandeln in Stockholm.
Two days from the trip I have my graduation party with my family. We just reserved the caked from a bakery and dad is buying all the drinks. It's gonna be fun.

And life is rather busy again. =) Tomorrow I get to see my viking, today I met my new psychiatrist and she was really great and gave me a lot of advices for the summer and getting a job. I am hopeful and feeling positive. ^_^

I promised photos from our trip to the nature reserve area, so here are a few:

The Erakkomurju Lean-to (laavu) from the inside)

The view from the cliff where the lean-to and fireplace were.

The sky from the fireplace.

My brother and the view to the lake and the peer (and boat we arrived with).

We made loimu-lohta/smoked salmon. YUM!

The beautiful fire. ♥

This is where we left with the boat when we rowed across the lake to the cabin. Beautiful!

Random

About a year ago a phonesales-woman phoned me. I HATE talking on the phone, but almost always answer if I don't know the number, because it might be something important (my doctor/psychiatrist/someone at the social services office...).
Me: Anna (with my usual voice)
saleswoman: Hello, may I speak to an adult of the household
Me: Um... I'm 30 years old... is that enough?
Saleswoman: *deeeeeeeeep silence* Uh, you sound a lot younger. Anyways-

HAHAHA! XD

That aside, we were in the wilderness today, I swam for the first time this spring, we ate smoked salmon (that we made ourselves), drank tons of wine, celebrated my brothers birthday, I slept on a cliff, we rowed a boat to the "lean-to" and back, it was an awesome adventure! =D =D Photos will follow. ^_^

Babies.

Just 3 years ago I was afraid of babies. They were just scary, I was afraid to touch them and when I did get to hold one, they always burst out crying. But during this last year or so, I've gotten rid of that fear. My sisters beautiful daughter helped a lot with that. Last sunday I spent hours playing with her, carried her around and got the dress her socks, and she smiled at me a lot, hihii, those little things made me so happy.

And today I saw two of my childhood friends who both have about year-old babies, a boy and a girl. We played with them and I took over 100 photos of them. Teehehee, it was really fun. 17 of my friends have gotten kids during this year. And I am so happy for them. During this time I have also realized that I want kids. One day. I hope I'm not too old when I want to make it happen. ♥

This week has been nice, not anything special, but nice and relaxing. I've seen friends and visited our anime/mangaclub Bakanat, it's been months since I visited there. I realized it's almost summer. I want Gay Pride to come soon. =D

I am still so very tired all the time. I sleep about 9-10 hours every night and an hour nap in the afternoon, and sometimes another nap at night. Then I can't get to bed before 2 am. It's not good, but I cannot help it, if I don't rest, I don't have any energy. It's really frustrating. =/ But I have been drawing a little again. Several sketches. ^_^

My Viking's roleplay character. He's still not completely happy with it, but I really like this painting. ;P

Spring 5

I had another psychiatrist appointment yesterday, the last one with this person, it seems. I am transferring to another psychiatrist, who is specialized on depression and rehabilitating. I have an opportunity to get in some sort of class to help me get a job and rehabilitate myself for a shape that I can work. The psychiatrist also said that the perfect job for me right now would be something easy, 4-6 hours a day. That would be so nice! I just wish it was that easy to get a job, which is isn't.

Oh well, I have all summer time to try to find a job. Maybe I will, you never know. Sometimes miracles happen. ;D Then last night my Viking came to my place and we made sushi. It was the first time I made sushi for him and he really liked it, a lot. We watched the movie "Wilde" with Stephen Fry on the lead, we're both huuuge fans. ^_^

Today I haven't really done anything, just hung around at home. I got my period and my stomach has been really achy for the past 3 days. Waylan called me and asked me and Ktiraam for a movie night tomorrow, that's gonna be fun. ^_^ A girls night. And they have a sauna too, yayyy! Now I just have to watch out that I don't start eating unhealthily again, this last week has gone so well, I have to make it a little longer. =D

Thor

I had an incredibly nice time with my viking last night. ♥ And today I got to see another Viking on the big screen. Haha. We went to see Thor with my friend Ktiraam. ^__^

The movie was awesome. The effects were great, especially in 3D. The landscapes and buildings in Asgard were magnificent and the main character Thor was great. A new actor, who I wish to see a lot more of. And he's so handsome that we had to fan ourselves every now and then with Ktiraam, mraurrrr. ;D~

Natalie Portman is also in the movie and I love her, she's great. The storyline is exciting and nicely built, it works though it's not the most surprising one. There are a few surprises that you wouldn't expect to see. ^_^ There is humour and romance and excitement. It's not a Viking mythology story although the names would suggest so, but there are still some nice Viking elements to spice things up. I'm not a big Marvel fan, it's just never really been my thing, though I've liked a lot of the Marvel movies that have come out lately. This movie I do recommend, full heartedly.

Though of all the new films that have come out this year, the best one so far has been Black Swan. ♥ Thor didn't quite get there, but it was great nonetheless (and very different). And I loved Tangled. The animation was great and the story so... Disney. They always make you smile. ^_^
Battle Los Angeles was okay too, though a little too "war" for me. Too macho and bloody.

Now I'm really waiting for
1) The last Harry Potter
2) Transformers 3
3) Sherlock Holmes 2
4) X-Men first class
5) First Avenger: Captain America
6) Green Lantern
7) Pirates of the Caribbean

=D There are way too many good ones coming out this year! =D

Mothersday

 We went to a traditional mothersday drive with my mom and brother today. Visited the semetery, ate at a grill and visited the wonderfully beautiful Hollola's church. These photos are taken from a tower on a hill behind the Hollola church. The view is to Vesijärvi lake. There in the horizon of the second photo, is my hometown. ^_^

Spring 4

I spent my first free day as en engineer cleaning my flat. XD I did the dishes and cleaned the kitchen cabinets. I vacuumed the whole place and washed the floors and wiped the dust. I still need to tidy up the balcony, wash the floor and bring two chairs from the attic so I can eat my breakfast outside.

The weather has been incredibly wonderful, sunny and warm for the last few days, so I've been out a lot, taking really long walks. And tomorrow is Mothers day, so we're gonna drive to a local semetery and put flowers to the graves of my grandmoms, grandads and aunt.

I've also been on a non-sugar diet for a few days now. I still grave for chocolate and I'm a little worried how this diet is gonna work next week when I get my period, I go crazy without chocolate then. ^^; The reason for this diet is, that I want to lose weight and my blood sugar levels might be too high. I don't actually know yet, since I get the results only next weeks wednesday. I hate to wait for such a thing, but it's been a good reason to start this diet.

I bought some really pretty red black&white dotted fabric and sewed a dress out of it today. It's really nice, though a little tight at the waist. Another reason to lose some weight. Hahaha. XD I'll take pictures of it when I find a shirt that goes with it. ^_^ I also painted tonight. It's been more than a month since I last painted, it felt good. And I couldn't stop until the picture was done. I wanted to draw a portrait of someone who I've never drawn before. And then I started to plan my Pain and Pleasure story ahead. She is a member of the tribe that Sajore & Xir'ag will meet on the next chapter (that I am still writing, urrrrr writers block is a horrible thing! Everything I write turns to shit.).

This picture also explains why Salvador, my vampire elf, has dreadlocks. He's living with the tribe and has learnt their ways. I might still add some tattoos on her. Maybe. ^^ Hmmm, I think this is enough babble for one night. I think I should go to bed so I'm all wake and ready for the mothers day celebration tomorrow! :D

Engineer!

The rest of it went to quickly that it still feels unreal. I graduated!

I got the rest of my math exercises done on Monday and Tuesday, I worked like a madwoman, haha! I wrote email to my teachers telling them that I will return them on Wednesday and got a reply from my professor in the middle of the night that I should go to the office and take care of the graduation things too, check the points and that sort of stuff.

I couldn't sleep at night and woke up at 7, I was so anxious. I walked to the school as soon as it was 8 am. I returned the math exercises, printed out a form that you need to return to the office when you want to graduate and checked the student points with the office staff.

When I got home, I got an email from my math teacher that I've received my last missing student points from the math course and so was graduated. Tadah. Just like that. I'm done. 7 years of work behind. Blood, sweat and tears. Sickness, one nervous breakdown and a lot of depression, fun parties, meeting absolutely wonderful people and lot of sleepless nights studying and worrying.

So now I have a fresh bachelors degree on Visualization engineering, which means I'm a Media Technology Engineer. Yayyyh!

I've been studying for 25 years without a stop so I think I'm gonna do something else for a change, haha! XDD I want to find a job that wont make me have a new nervous breakdown and that I don't have to worry about constantly. Something that I don't hate. But that can wait until summer.

Now it's time to relax, rest and party! =D